#003 “ The Boudoir Experience ”
Photographing boudoir was always somewhere in the back of my mind, but I truly didn’t think I’d ever have the courage to pursue it professionally. I resonate deeply with the idea of celebrating yourself and being proud of who you are but fear of facing the perception and judgement from others steered me into (in my opinion) the safer and more socially accepted avenues of photography. I started photographing families, small weddings, and even did in-hospital newborn photography until the pandemic put us into lockdown. The emotion and love I could capture in these sessions really had me excited to be a photographer— a keeper of peoples’ memories and of the most meaningful times in their lives. I chase that kind of love myself and felt so proud to document it for others (I still am, please don’t misunderstand!). During this time I began attending therapy and I realized I was carrying a lot of shame surrounding who I am as a person. I think it mostly stemmed from the fear of perception/judgement and the subsequent actions I took to remain palatable. I denied myself the things that I loved because I did not feel “good enough”, or like I would never be truly accepted by the people surrounding me. This immediately began my journey of radical self-acceptance.
Boudoir began to mean something different to me. It wasn’t just about being hot or sexy anymore. It became about radical self-acceptance + being able to show people they are beautiful however they show up. There are no rules to loving yourself, and I feel like that kind of goes for boudoir as well. I think when people hear “boudoir” the first image that pops into their head is skimpy lingerie and a provocative pose but it can also be your favorite oversized sweater and boyshort underwear. Or boxers and a tank top. It can and should be whatever makes you comfortable. The session and images are the result of your self expression. I want the experience to end with you feeling accepted and heard and valued in whatever capacity you’re searching for.
The VQP Boudoir Experience is not officially being offered yet— I’m looking for models to help me nail down style, ideas, and to just get creative! I’m hard at work creating mood boards, searching for studios, and securing a hair and MUA for sessions (if you desire!).
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